recovered

Bai Shunan rested his hand on the sink, the water flowing gently before him. He raised his hand to turn it off. He stood there, dazed, feeling a wave of dizziness and what felt like tinnitus. He thought about the medicine he had to prepare, the wet towel, the ginger soup simmering in the pot...

As the warmth dripped onto his hands one after another, Bai Shunan stood there in a daze. He looked at the tears sliding down the back of his hand with confusion on his face. Bai Shunan quickly raised his hand to wipe away the tears. The more anxious and at a loss he became, the more he couldn't stop crying.

Soon after, as if finally giving in, he covered his face with his hands, letting the tears flow, and the sobs stuck in his throat came out intermittently. The scene of Lu Jinfeng collapsing kept flashing back in Bai Shunan's mind, and the panic that could not be driven away continued to linger in his body, wrenching his heart.

There were some noises coming from the distance, but after a moment of relaxation, my heart tightened again.

Bai Shunan hurriedly wiped away his tears and ran into the room. He touched the burning forehead of Lu Jinfeng, and his hand shrank with his heart, "I feel uncomfortable..."

Before he finished speaking, a hand grabbed Bai Shunan's left hand, and the hot body temperature wrapped around his wrist. Palms touched palms, and the temperature continued to rise. Lu Jinfeng's fingertips stroked it from time to time.

Bai Shunan froze in place. After his heart calmed down for a second, it began beating violently, as if a sea of ​​flowers was blooming in his heart, with the wind swirling among them, lifting the petals like waves.

He fell here.

The arrogant thoughts were gently lifted up.

Lu Jinfeng's unintentional indulgence gradually nurtured his desire. Bai Shunan raised his other hand, wanting to touch Lu Jinfeng's cheek, but it stopped mid-air. After a moment of retreat, he withdrew his hand and gently stroked the corner of the quilt. Bai Shunan looked at Lu Jinfeng's pale, sick face, and his infinite struggle disappeared in an instant. The remaining floating dust finally condensed into a sentence: "Get well soon."

Under the smoothed area, their hands snuggled together and held tightly.

Bai Shunan sat back in his chair, staring at Lu Jinfeng with his eyes downcast. His panic was appeased, and a feeling of helplessness arose in his heart, as if everything had fallen to the ground. There was a hint of a smile on his lips, and his voice was so light that it was almost ethereal: "This way, you can hate me."

"Forget it." He could ignore everything except his pain. Bai Shunan still reached out and touched Lu Jinfeng's cheek, his eyes full of longing as if he was saying goodbye to someone. "Lu Jinfeng, you should be happy."

-

Lu Jinfeng didn't like hiring a housekeeper, so he always cleaned the house by himself. Sometimes, cleaning made him feel fulfilled. After he felt better this time, he dragged his sick body to sweep the floor for a while. He looked at the packaging bags on the table, the various medicines, and the messy kitchen. He could imagine Bai Shunan's hurried look when taking care of him, and a smile played on Lu Jinfeng's lips.

After doing some tidying up the kitchen, he started to cook porridge. The more he cooked, the blander it became. He added some vegetables and shredded meat. After thinking for a while, he peeled some shrimps and put them in.

When the food was almost cooked, Lu Jinfeng looked at the time and estimated that Bai Shunan had slept for six or seven hours, so he went to the room to wake him up.

Perhaps because he didn't often sleep in his own bedroom, there was a noticeable layer of dust on Lu Jinfeng's bedroom floor.

He ate an apple and handed the porridge to Bai Shunan. Seeing Bai Shunan taking the porridge in confusion, Lu Jinfeng felt touched and couldn't help but raise the corners of his lips. He realized that taking care of others can also give him a sense of fulfillment.

Lu Jinfeng lay back on the bed. He didn't mind Bai Shunan eating in his room.

He doesn't ask him to stay clean.

He will take care of everything.

However, Lu Jinfeng looked at Bai Shunan's back as he was about to leave his sight, and frowned slightly, "Aren't you going to take care of me?"

Bai Shunan paused when he heard this and said, "I'll go wash up and come back later."

Lu Jinfeng smiled and said, "Okay."

-

"Why do you want to move out?" Lu Jinfeng put down the cup in his hand and looked up at Bai Shunan coldly. A hint of illness stained his eyebrows, and a touch of inextricable melancholy, just like a dead leaf on a branch. He glanced at the hands on Bai Shunan's lap, and the delicate and warm touch suddenly reappeared. A trace of displeasure flashed in his eyes. He really didn't understand why Bai Shunan suddenly proposed to move out.

Seeing Bai Shunan's silence, Lu Jinfeng thought of something he didn't want to mention or face. He closed his eyes in anger and asked, "Go find your girlfriend?"

"No, I'm going back to my place..."

"You are so annoying to me." Lu Jinfeng frowned and interrupted Bai Shunan. His pale face was even redder with anger. His long eyelashes were slightly closed, and the irritation and anger intertwined in his eyes were hidden behind the haze.

"No." Bai Shunan's voice was gentle, and there was a hint of confrontation in the air. Bai Shunan only then raised his eyes to look at Lu Jinfeng, his bright eyes still holding a lingering determination. Looking at Lu Jinfeng, he also felt the gentleness of the afternoon sunshine.

Lu Jinfeng's breath was choked. He couldn't understand, "Then why did you leave me? Do you hate me?"

As soon as the words were out of my mouth, regret overtook my heart, followed by uncontrollable panic.

"That's even more impossible. I don't have many scenes left..."

"Alright, alright," Lu Jinfeng said, feeling inexplicably flustered. Bai Shunan's words, "That's even more impossible," were still lingering in his mind. He was already denying it like that, so he must be in love with her. A blush crept onto Lu Jinfeng's face, and he wanted to end this quickly. "I won't listen to you. Just stay by..." my side.

"I want to leave."

The kite's string broke.

Lu Jinfeng's heart skipped a beat. For a moment, he felt something was getting more and more chaotic, something was getting further and further away from him, and the familiar panic set in again. Why was Bai Shunan like this again? He said he loved him, but he was going to leave him at the same time.

He looked up at Bai Shunan's expression, which was still calm. Lu Jinfeng felt a moment of pain in his heart, but in a moment, he returned to normal, with a cold expression on his face. "Okay, leave, get out now."

The illness came up and Lu Jinfeng was gasping for breath. He turned his back to Bai Shunan, pulled the quilt tightly, and closed his sour eyes.

Hearing the door close, Lu Jinfeng covered himself with the quilt, unable to believe that Bai Shunan, that bastard, had really left. His eyes suddenly became dull. He had just wanted to be nicer to Bai Shunan, but Bai Shunan treated him like this again. How could this be right? How could someone be such a bastard? He shouldn't get close to him again.

Before falling into a coma again, Lu Jinfeng thought vaguely, could it be that Bai Shunan still holds a grudge against him because he beat him up? Thinking of the possibility that Bai Shunan was taking revenge on him, Lu Jinfeng couldn't help but grit his teeth and said, "He must be sent by God to torture me."

How could he be so stupid that he failed to take revenge and ended up being retaliated against.

After complaining for a while, Lu Jinfeng couldn't resist the sleepiness. Thinking that Bai Shunan was so annoying, he fell asleep.

In his dream, he saw Bai Shunan. Bai Shunan, like a phantom, left his side for the first time in his dream, moving away from him step by step, and disappeared from his sight.

He chased frantically, but how could he find the missing person?

How to bring back nightmares.