Chapter 72: Gorgeous
◎What happened on the day of the incident?◎
Fei Siqin's second personality is beautiful, self-aware, and full of feminine charm.
Zhao Xiangwan asked: "Teacher Fei is so strict and has cultivated you for so many years. You started learning piano at the age of six and it has been seven years since you were thirteen. How could he be willing to give up?" After persisting for such a long time and investing so much effort, how could the strong Fei Yongbai give up easily?
Fei Siqin leaned against the headboard, pulled off the rubber band, and let her hair fall down. She was clean by nature, and washed her hair yesterday. At this moment, her hair was like clouds, with the fragrance of shampoo, covering half of her face, adding a mysterious beauty.
After hearing what Zhao Xiangwan said, Fei Siqin glanced at Zhao Xiangwan with a look of disdain on her face: "You don't know, do you? I have an aunt who didn't die of a normal illness. As soon as my dad saw me, he understood everything."
Aunt, it wasn’t a natural death?
Zhao Xiangwan was shocked: Could it be that Fei Yongbai's sister also has multiple personalities? So, as soon as Fei Yongbai saw Bingbing, who was completely different from Mumu, he knew something was wrong?
Fei Siqin saw Zhao Xiangwan's expression and suddenly chuckled: "You are so smart."
Fei Siqin's every smile and frown is full of charm, and she also has a natural, unconscious arrogance and contempt, which is completely different from Mumu, as if she is Mumu's opposite.
Mumu is obedient and never dares to say no; Bingbing is rebellious and bravely refuses.
Mumu is slow in doing things and speaks slowly; Bingbing is decisive in doing things and speaks quickly;
Mumu gets flustered when encountering problems and subconsciously relies on others; Bingbing is calm and composed, strong and independent;
Mumu is a well-behaved child who has not grown up; Bingbing is a charming mature woman.
Fei Siqin leaned against the head of the bed, her eyes empty and her thoughts drifting far away.
[My aunt, Fei Yongzhen, isn't this name ironic? Yongzhen, chastity, virtuous, can this thing last forever? I heard that the girls in the Fei family are all very beautiful, but once they reach adulthood, they particularly like men and are also very popular with men. Well, that is what others call coquettish. In order to suppress the lust in the girls of the Fei family, they really took great pains. In the feudal era, the girls were bound with feet and chests, and read the "Nu Yi". Later, after liberation, they had to destroy the four olds, and they had no choice but to confine them to their homes, but what's the use? What is coming will still come.]
He Mingyu could see that Fei Siqin was very different before and after, and guessed that she had a dual personality, but because she didn't hear her inner voice, she felt a little jumpy. She glanced at Zhao Xiangwan with a questioning look in her eyes.
Zhao Xiangwan did not explain, but signaled her with his eyes to continue listening and just take notes.
He Mingyu nodded, lowered her head and began to take notes seriously.
Zhao Xiangwan asked Fei Siqin: "Does Teacher Fei know about your existence?"
Fei Siqin smiled and lifted her hair, then stretched out her bandaged arm. Even though it was covered in scars, her movements were still charming. "My existence? Teacher Fei didn't want me to come out at all. He thought he could succeed, and he almost succeeded."
【Teacher Fei said that children who practice piano will not become bad. I think there is no chance for them to become bad, because except for eating and sleeping, all their free time is occupied by piano practice. Every day they practice boringly, 12345671, 17654321, practicing with left hand and right hand alternately, once, ten times, a hundred times... The same etude, two pages of music, must be played countless times every day until they are rotten.】
【Mumu is very obedient. She does whatever the adults ask her to do. But do you know? Having two teachers at home is a very scary thing. As long as Mumu shows the slightest thought of giving up, Teacher Fei and Teacher Qu won't let her go. They take turns to lecture her, saying things like "Only perseverance leads to victory" and "If you don't advance, you will retreat" and "The fragrance of plum blossoms comes from the bitter cold."】
【Every word they say is right and makes sense. Mumu wants to be lazy and play, which is a great rebellion, a lack of perseverance, a shameful deserter who will never achieve anything great. Mumu is being controlled to the point of being suffocated, becoming less and less courageous, following the rules, and moving more and more slowly. She just wants to rest, she just wants to go out and play.】
After hearing this, Zhao Xiangwan roughly understood.
Fei Yongbai and Qu Weige are both teachers. They happened to have nothing to do at work and had plenty of time, so they devoted all their time to Fei Siqin's education.
University education is different from early childhood education. University students’ three views have been basically formed, their thoughts are relatively mature, and their learning goals are clear. It is okay for teachers to point out problems ruthlessly and practice repeatedly. However, it is the nature of children to be playful, and interest is the best teacher. Blindly suppressing and criticizing them is not conducive to their growth.
Fei Yongbai and Qu Weige were first-time parents, and they had little experience. They were too eager to cultivate talent. If they had met a naughty child, the crying child would get the milk, and the two sides would have been constantly fighting, and they would have slowly learned to compromise. But Fei Siqin was a thoughtful, obedient child, and she would do whatever the adults said. Therefore, Fei Yongbai and Qu Weige could not find the problems in their education at all, and they went astray step by step.
Why do the girls in the Fei family have lustful spirits? Perhaps it is because their parents have been suppressing them, which has caused them to develop a rebellious mentality? Of course, it cannot be denied that there may have been such women in the ancestors of the Fei family who were naturally more promiscuous.
Zhao Xiangwan looked at the charming Fei Siqin in front of him and sighed in his heart. It was a pity that the Fei family did not appreciate this kind of beauty at all. If they could appreciate it and guide it properly, Fei Siqin's second personality might become a star shining on the screen.
Zhao Xiangwan asked her, "When Teacher Fei discovered your presence, how did he react?"
Fei Siqin lowered her eyelids, her face expressionless and cold: "What reaction can there be? Beat him up."
[It was the same face, but I didn't expect him to be so scared. I just told him that I'm an adult now and have the right to decide what I want to do in life. I don't want to learn the accordion and I won't practice from now on. If he hits me again, I'll die in front of him. You see, I was just a little more resolute and brave than Mumu, but he trembled all over and slapped me! ]
The memories of the past were not pleasant. Faith Qin slowly raised her hand and stroked her cheek, as if it still hurt there.
[When he hit me before, he only used a ruler to hit the back of my hand. My hand would hurt, but my heart would not hurt. But that slap was on my face. Mumu's face was so obedient and beautiful, and it felt like it was burning when he slapped her for the first time. It was really strange, because I didn't feel any pain on my face at that time, but my heart was hurting.]
I don’t know why, although Fei Siqin had a cold face, when Zhao Xiangwan heard her inner voice, his heart began to ache.
When she was a child, Qian Shufen would beat people, but she used a thin bamboo stick to beat people, which hurt her hands. If Zhao Xiangwan didn't have the ability to read minds and know that Qian Shufen was deliberately suppressing him, and if he didn't have a strong character and a spirit of not admitting defeat, I'm afraid he would have psychological problems, right?
People always say that "a good son is made under the stick", but who knows that a child who is beaten by his parents is likely to develop mental illness?
Even if you are healthy, at least... you will feel inferior.
Even if he becomes successful one day, even if he is praised by everyone one day, this child who was beaten up will still feel that he is useless.
Zhao Xiangwan raised his head and looked at Fei Siqin seriously: "He hit you, he was wrong."
Fei Siqin laughed sarcastically: "Do you think he is wrong? But Mr. Fei is very confident, he is always right. The name Fei Yongbai is not a good choice. I think he should be called Fei Yongdui, always right. Or, Yongqiang, always strong, always powerful."
Zhao Xiangwan still had many questions in his mind: "After Teacher Fei discovered your existence, what else did he do besides beating you?"
Perhaps because she had been suppressed for too long, this was the first time she met someone who could understand her, so Fei Siqin was very cooperative this time: "He asked Teacher Qu to take a leave of absence for me, and asked her to take me to Country M to see a psychiatrist."
After Teacher Fei slapped me, he kept walking around the room, saying that no one else should know about this. If anyone knew that I was mentally ill, our family would be ruined. Alas! Teacher Fei was very strong-willed and wanted to save face all his life. He was really worried about having a mentally ill person like me in his family. 】
Fei Siqin raised her eyes and glanced outside the door. Ji Zhao was always quiet, but he could get along with outsiders so freely, which surprised Fei Siqin, who was familiar with him.
【Ji Zhao's mother used to take him abroad for medical treatment every year. Aunt Luo knew many psychiatrists there. However, autism and dissociative disorder are not the same thing, so we saw different doctors. I received treatment there for two months, and I didn't touch the accordion, I just chatted with the doctor. That feeling was really wonderful! 】
Zhao Xiangwan asked: "How is the treatment effect?"
Fei Siqin smiled: "Effect? This disease cannot be cured."
[The doctor just told me to relax. They tried their best to get me to go back and not come out again. Anyway, I also like Mumu, so we agreed to listen to Mumu in everything. If Mumu is happy, then let her live happily. If Mumu is scared, then I will take over.]
Although Faith Qin was named "Bingbing" by Mumu, she is not cold at all. She is just relatively cautious when facing strangers and calm when facing major changes. Once she is willing to lower herself to communicate with you, she speaks very fast and has a rich inner monologue, which seems to be endless, as if she wants to wipe out all the dullness and naggingness of "Mumu".
想到費思章的班主任曾說過，費思章剛入學的時候手背經常有被打的紅印子，但十月之後就沒有了，趙向晚問費思琴：“費老師改變了嗎？”
費思琴說：“變了。費老師把戒尺扔了，不敢再打人。”
費思琴臉上沒有表情，但不知道為什麽趙向晚卻感覺有些陰郁。
【我這一病，倒是章章得了好處，讓他擁有了一個輕松、愉快的童年。他喜歡小汽車，那就買小汽車；他喜歡打球，那就買球鞋；他喜歡和小朋友一起出去玩，就可以出去玩。可是我呢？呵呵。】
趙向晚問：“只是不打人了嗎？”
從季錦茂的描述、從高廣強他們調查的結果，費思琴上女校之後家裏人管束得非常嚴格。明明醫生說了要放松，為什麽費家夫妻倆卻依然如臨大敵？
費思琴眼神漸漸冰冷：“呵，他們不打我，但是把我管得更嚴了。不讓穿花衣裳，不讓玩洋娃娃，不讓交朋友，不停地和我說，女孩子要貞靜和順，要溫婉矜持，要和異性保持距離，要保護好自己的身體和清白。他們把我像賊一樣地防着，就怕我一個忍不住往男人身上撲。”
往男人身上撲？這話說得可真難聽。
想到剛才費思琴提到的姑姑，趙向晚問：“你姑姑到底出了什麽事？讓費老師他們那麽擔心你？”
費思琴看着趙向晚，忽然冷笑一聲：“我為什麽要告訴你？”
【這是我們費家的秘密，我憑什麽要告訴她？我姑姑哪怕人在精神病醫院，也是最風情的那一個，只是每天都會注射鎮靜類藥物，整個人有些呆呆愣愣的。費老師帶我去看了我姑，她拿塊紅紗巾裹在頭上，問我她美不美，問為什麽不來看她。費老師反複不斷地告誡我，要貞靜守禮，要潔身自好，不要談戀愛。他把我送到啓明女校，那裏連老師都是女的，一個異性都沒有。費老師這是多麽害怕，我會重蹈費家女孩的覆轍啊。】
【費家是大族，女孩子都很漂亮，而且特別媚，招男人喜歡。祖上據說出了幾個姑奶奶，守寡之後耐不住寂寞，和男人私奔被捉沉了塘。因此費家特別緊張，對女孩子管束很嚴。】
【我姑姑下鄉勞動的時候，和當地農民私通，懷了孩子，氣得我爺爺要命。親自跑去把她弄回城裏，逼她打了胎，養了不到三個月，她又和醫生好上了，那個醫生有老婆的，爺爺把她鎖在家裏，結果她又哭又叫，最後……瘋了。】
趙向晚認真地審視了她一眼。
費思琴的每一根骨頭，似乎都在散發着性魅力，這是一種與生俱來、非常獨特的魅力。或許，費家的女孩都傳承了這種基因，只是這麽多年來一直被強硬壓制下去。
對性的渴望，不論男女都有。只是數千年的封建傳統，認為男人性魅力強，能夠擁有很多女人，這代表成功。而女人如果同樣如此，那就代表淫.蕩。
趙向晚忽然想到費思章床底下那個收納箱裏的芭比娃娃：“連洋娃娃也不讓玩嗎？為什麽？”
費思琴輕聲一笑，笑聲裏帶着嘲諷：“我最愛玩的，是芭比娃娃，我想做一個服裝設計師，設計出很多很多漂亮的衣服。明明我媽是藝術學院的老師，可是我爸卻不允許我做這一行，他說天天和男人女人打交道，會把心性都帶壞。他要讓我将來當老師，最好是教數學，因為數學是培養邏輯思維、空間想象能力、計算能力的嚴謹科學，可以将我骨子裏的浪漫、跳脫、不着邊際壓下去。所以，他讓我學理科，考師範。你看，我的人生被安排得明明白白，一絲透氣的孔都不給我留下。”
聽到這裏，連何明玉都感覺到了壓抑。
代入想象一下，如果自己的人生被強行安排，恐怕也會喘不上氣來。
何明玉的家裏一共四個女孩，大姐高中畢業進電子廠當工人，二姐大專畢業當了國營棉紗廠當會計，她考上公安大學當了警察，老四成績不錯，立志要當醫生，考到江城醫學院，今年大三。
何明玉的父母雖然沒有什麽文化，雖然有點重男輕女，但一來并沒有丢棄、苛待女兒，二來尊重每個孩子的興趣愛好，任其發展。在何明玉父母眼裏，每個女兒都很争氣，不管是當工人、會計、警察還是醫生，只要能掙錢養活自己，那就行。
可是費思琴呢？看似家庭條件優渥，藝術氛圍濃厚，可是父親太過強勢，真是……唉！想到還躺在ICU裏的費永柏，何明玉真不知道應該說什麽好。
趙向晚現在至少弄懂了兩件事：
第一，費思琴初一覺醒第二重人格，父親終于不再逼她學琴，但卻對她的女性角色進行全方位壓制。這就是為什麽她的卧室裝修與陳設給趙向晚一種割裂的原因。既想要打扮女兒，又怕女兒太吸引男人。
第二，費永柏家裏有精神疾病的遺傳基因，女性突然在成人之後覺醒出第二人格，這一重人格裏最大的特點便是渴望與異性親近。費永柏因為知道這一點，所以一直想方設法壓制住費思琴身體裏的“女人”角色。
她的第一人格木木老實乖巧、木讷磨叽，第二人格冰冰自我、随性，遇大事冷靜自如，第三人格豔豔呢？是什麽樣的？又是什麽時候覺醒出來的呢？
想到這裏，趙向晚問：“費老師和屈老師關系怎麽樣？”
“挺好。”費思琴的眸子自左向右，慢慢移向右上方——這代表說謊。
【費老師強勢、講究，屈老師溫順、有潔癖，多好的搭配啊，可是我看着都替他們累得慌。這樣的日子給我，我一天也過不下去。】
趙向晚繼續追問：“三年前發生了什麽？我聽說費老師和屈老師大吵了一架。”
費思琴冷哼一聲：“這是我們家的家務事，和案件有關系嗎？”
趙向晚現在有經驗了，只需要自己丢出問題，然後安靜等待即可。費思琴外表冷漠，其實內裏卻是個話痨。
可是這一回，費思琴一點也沒有透露。
【我哪裏知道他們在吵什麽？反正那個時候我睡着了，木木也睡着了，這個身體啊，歸豔豔管。豔豔不愛說話，她要是不想說，我和木木都不知道。】
趙向晚的眸光變得銳利起來：“你們家的家務事，和案件關系很密切，我希望你能配合我們調查。”
費思琴感覺到壓力，身體漸漸坐直，整個人變得緊繃起來。
“你們不去抓壞人，不停地逼問我，是什麽意思？你，翻翻我們的記錄，你們問的都是些什麽——是不是處女？用什麽辦法讓費老師不逼我學琴？費老師知不知道我的存在？治療有沒有效果？現在又問我費老師和屈老師關系好不好。從頭到尾有哪一句和案件有關？是有人闖進我家，殺了我媽、我弟，傷了我爸和我，我是受害人，是受害人！你這些問的，好像是我們自相殘殺一樣！”
趙向晚既然知道她有三重人格，那便必須把豔豔逼出來！
趙向晚同樣坐直身體，下巴略低，鳳眼微眯，聲音清冷，語速很快：“雙重人格，屬于精神疾病，應該是遺傳吧？你姑姑因為這個，被關進了精神病醫院，是不是？”
聽到趙向晚說出“精神病院”四個字，費思琴明顯緊張起來，她的聲音變得有些幹澀：“不是！沒有！我們并不影響任何人，這和角色扮演有什麽區別？學習的時候就讓聽話的木木出來，我睡覺；被人欺負的時候就讓我來，木木休息。我倆商量得好好的，什麽事都沒有。”
趙向晚冷笑一聲：“如果真能商量得這麽好，那你姑姑為什麽關進了精神病院？為什麽你和木木都以為自己是處女？為什麽你無法準确描述強.暴者的面容，更不清楚案發過程？”
費思琴雙肩突然內扣，雙手抱住臂膊，開始顫抖。
【我不知道，我不知道，都是豔豔說的。她不經常出來的，我也不知道她什麽時候會出來。】
趙向晚繼續施加壓力：“你一直在說謊！你的腳踝與手腕并沒有捆綁痕跡，現場撕爛的睡裙也沒有揉搓；你雖有性.愛過程，但受傷不嚴重；你說是三個粗壯漢子，但現場腳印卻顯示有兩名少年……”
費思琴的面色漸漸蒼白，開始搖頭。
趙向晚說：“所有謊言，都是為了掩蓋一個可怕的現實。你懂嗎？你的身體裏，如果只住着木木和你，何必說謊？你讓她出來！我來和她說話！到底真相是什麽？為什麽要說謊？人到底是誰殺的？”
費思琴開始尖叫：“我不知道，我不知道！”
劉良駒從走廊沖進來，緊張地問：“怎麽了？”
何明玉知道現在正是關鍵時刻，忙起身将劉良駒往外推：“沒事，你出去守着，誰來也不許進。”上一次醫生進來埋怨她的場景，何明玉一直記得。
費思琴抱着腦袋繼續尖叫，頭發披散着，眼神渙散。她的胳膊因為用力，紗布開始浸出血來，看着很是駭人。
趙向晚半點都不受費思琴的行動所影響，提高音量：“那個躲在你們身後的人，給我出來！費老師就算嚴格，也是一片愛女之心，擔心她受到傷害。屈老師裏裏外外一把抓，把家裏收拾得幹幹淨淨，還陪着你出國治療。費思章尊你敬你，在他的收納箱裏，至今還藏着你最愛的洋娃娃。這麽好的一家人，你為什麽忍心傷害他們！”
“嗡——”趙向晚的腦海裏響起那聲刺耳的鳴叫。
趙向晚知道，豔豔……要出來了。
果然，費思琴的身體緩緩放松。
捂住耳朵的手放了下來。
她的眼神變了。
木木的眼神，是乖巧懵懂的；冰冰的眼神，是冷靜中帶着絲嘲諷。
但她們的眼神都是清澈的。
可是現在，她的眼神變得幽深、昏暗，趙向晚感覺到了危險。
仿佛藏在人群之後的一杆獵.槍，随時便會射出一發子彈，精準命中目标。
仿佛散發着腐臭味的沼澤，只要你一腳踏入，那就将被她吞沒，屍骨無存。
又仿佛暗夜裏，有一條毒蛇在爬行，絲絲地吐着紅色的蛇信子，等你感知到它的存在，毒牙已經刺破你的皮膚。
豔豔懶洋洋地往後靠了靠，冷冷地看着趙向晚：“是你，在叫我？”
趙向晚謹慎問道：“怎麽稱呼？”
豔豔指尖動了動，仿佛在琴鍵上跳舞：“豔豔。”
趙向晚問她：“為什麽教她們說謊？”
豔豔笑了：“因為……我怕她們受不了。”
趙向晚問：“不如告訴我，真相是什麽。”
豔豔吹了一聲口哨：“可惜，費永柏還沒死。我本來打算把他們都殺了，沒想到那一刀不夠狠，啧啧。”
想到幹淨整潔的衛生間那小小的香薰燈，想到一箱子汽車模型底下藏着的洋娃娃，趙向晚的內心升起一股憤怒：“為什麽？”
為什麽要殺人？為什麽要傷害家人？
豔豔沒有着急回答趙向晚的問題。她難得出來一趟，很愉快地左看右看，盤腿坐在病床上，一把址下病號服最上面的一顆衣領紐扣，露出更多雪白修長的頸脖。
趙向晚留意到，她的動作粗魯，只一下便把紐扣扯脫，尋常女孩子沒有這麽大的力氣。
——看來，第三重人格的費思琴，力氣變大了許多。
趙向晚沒有催促，繼續觀察。
豔豔調整到最舒服的坐姿之後，這才看着趙向晚，咧嘴一笑：“謝謝你把我叫出來。”
【木木這個笨蛋，不知道我的存在。我有什麽事，就和冰冰打商量。只是冰冰不好騙，嗯，最好把她倆都殺了，這樣……這個美麗的身體就是我一個人的。】
趙向晚心中一驚，眼中閃過一道利光：“你做了什麽？為什麽要這樣做？不如告訴我。我比她們更有耐心，也願意聽你的故事。”
豔豔嘿嘿一笑，笑聲裏透着股陰森森的味道。
“我先來告訴你，為什麽吧。”
“木木一定告訴了你，費永柏這個狗東西天天逼她練琴，還拿戒尺打她，對不對？她不敢憎恨父母，只敢躲在被窩裏偷偷地哭，真是個懦弱的笨蛋！”
“哭有什麽用？哭能改變現實嗎？”
“到了十三歲，木木來了例假，她坐在衛生間裏哭，然後把冰冰叫醒。”
“冰冰比木木勇敢，她敢反抗，敢穿漂亮裙子轉圈圈，敢告訴費永柏她永遠也不要練琴。費永柏以為她是我，抽了她一巴掌，又趕緊讓屈薇歌帶她去國內看病，還送她去女校讀書，唉喲喲，真是煞費苦心啊。”
“其實啊，冰冰也是個好女孩。”
“她只是比木木勇敢一點，只是愛漂亮一點，只是願意和男孩子交往一點，遠遠夠不着壞的門檻。”
“費永柏像防賊一樣，防的人其實是我，你明白嗎？”
何明玉一邊記筆錄，一邊手心冒汗。
三重人格！活了二十幾歲，當警察當了三、四年，第一次見到真正的三重人格，這種感覺……既興奮、又忐忑，還有些恐懼。
誰不知道被精神病殺人不償命？萬一這個叫什麽豔豔的人暴起傷人，怎麽辦？
何明玉這一緊張，不自覺地呼吸便粗重起來。
豔豔瞟了何明玉一眼，嘲笑道：“還警察呢，這麽緊張幹嘛？我又不吃人。”說到吃人二字，她還故意龇了一下牙，吓得何明玉手一抖。但何明玉馬上反應過來，臉一板：“你嚴肅點！”
豔豔逗了一下何明玉，覺得沒勁，轉過頭繼續盯着趙向晚：“你怎麽知道有我的？一般人都把冰冰當成了我。”
趙向晚淡淡道：“冰冰不會說謊。”
豔豔一聽，頓時感覺遇到了知己：“唉呀，我手把手教她，都教不會！說個謊而已，這有什麽難的？”
趙向晚問：“費永柏做了什麽，你那麽恨他？”
木木稱他為“爸爸”，冰冰稱他為“費老師”，而豔豔，則稱他為“費永柏”。
豔豔輕描淡寫地說：“他還需要做什麽？他打木木、管冰冰，這就是罪過！我們女人，不需要男人來管轄。我早就想弄死他，可惜一直沒有機會。”
趙向晚：“這回你等到機會了？”
豔豔轉了轉脖子，顧左右而言它：“我主要是出不來，費永柏管得太嚴了。如果不是冰冰破了身子，我根本就出不來。”
破了身子？趙向晚感覺有些喘不上氣來。
豔豔嬌笑嫣然：“你以為，費家女兒為什麽都守不住寂寞？我告訴你啊，只要是沾過男人之後，我們的身體就像花兒一樣綻放，如果沒有持續不斷的滋潤，就會發狂。”
停頓了一下，豔豔繼續說：“費永柏千防萬防，把我送到女校，以為這樣就能保我一世平安。可是呢，他千防萬防，卻沒防得住他的學生。他在家裏開班授課，一次教一個，只要是他們見過我，不管是研究生，還是本科生，或者高中生，一個個眼眼珠子恨不得沾在我身上。”
豔豔應該也是憋久了，講起自己勾引男人的故事很有點洋洋自得。
費永柏越管束，費思琴越逆反，女孩子身體發育成熟之後本來就會對異性産生濃厚的興趣，可是費永柏近乎變态的管束将她身體裏對“性”的渴望壓制住，于是費思琴在高二，也就是三年前，與費永柏的研究生邱賓白有了第一次，然後，豔豔出現。
木木是不敢做這種事的，親自經歷的人是冰冰。
事後冰冰感覺很痛，很難受，心中既惶恐又後悔，坐在床邊哭泣，豔豔終于找到機會。
豔豔笑得很嚣張：“她竟然說，性一點也不好玩，她說很痛、不舒服，真是個傻孩子。”
趙向晚感覺後背有些發寒：“你，做了什麽？”
豔豔仰頭大笑：“我做了什麽？費永柏喝醉酒，一個人躺在那裏，我就去勾引他啊。男人麽……只要我想要，就沒有勾搭不上的。”
何明玉不敢置信地看着笑得歡樂無比的豔豔：“他是你爸！”
趙向晚忽然明白過來，難怪三年前費永柏與屈薇歌大吵一架，難怪屈薇歌罵費永柏不是東西，難怪這對夫妻面和心不和，這都是豔豔在搗鬼！
趙向晚的喉嚨有些幹澀，說實話，聽到這個消息她是震驚的：“你，成功了？”
豔豔的笑聲戛然而止。
【成功？什麽成功？哦，對了，我去勾引費永柏，原本進行得挺順利，可是屈薇歌闖了進來，扇了我一巴掌，罵了我一句不要臉。然後……冰冰把我趕了回去，後面的事我就不知道了。】
趙向晚冷笑一聲：“可惜啊，費老師、屈老師感情深厚，哪怕知道你恬不知恥地勾引自己的父親，他們夫妻倆依然和好了，是不是？”
豔豔的面孔忽然有些扭曲，咬着牙開始咒罵。
“我才是最美的，我這麽漂亮，全世界的男人都應該愛我。偏偏費永柏不肯好好疼我，他不肯愛我，他只愛屈薇歌那個臭女人！
屈薇歌有什麽好？她把家裏搞得纖塵不染，還要求我們所有人也要保持衛生，只要踩髒一點她就啰嗦唠叨，聽着煩死了。看到我和費永柏上了床，她的臉色好難看，把我從床上拖下來，用刷子給我洗澡，用刷子刷，你知道嗎？她這是有多嫌我髒啊。
哦對了，還有那個可惡的小鬼費思章。憑什麽我小時候天天被打，他卻可以高高興興地和小朋友玩耍？憑什麽我只能上女校、連洋娃娃都不可以玩，他卻可以和女孩子手牽手做游戲、買最喜歡的汽車模型？該死！他們都該死！”
自私、霸道、嫉妒。
This gorgeousness represents the darkest side of Fei Siqin's heart.
She wants to monopolize all the love, wants to have all the attention, and is jealous of everyone who is stronger and happier than her.
Every normal person has a dark side in their heart.
At a certain moment, because of a certain thing, you may feel jealous, hateful, or even want to go crazy and destroy everything.
However, conscience will suppress all of this and digest these negative emotions.
However, due to the strong education at home, Fei Siqin split her heart into three selves.
Mumu represents the obedient, kind, and sensible side of Fei Siqin;
Bingbing represents the calm, self-centered and strong side of Fei Siqin;
Yanyan represents the most unbearable and darkest side of Fei Siqin.
Zhao Xiangwan's voice was very calm: "What happened on the day of the incident? Who was the person involved with you? Who stabbed Fei Yongbai? Who hacked Qu Weige to death? Who killed Fei Sizhang with a single knife in the throat?"
Yanyan looked at Zhao Xiangwan quietly, without saying a word.