Chapter 233
This was one of her rare major outbursts. Every time she had a major outburst, she would feel ashamed and want to die.
It had been a long time since her last major attack. With him by her side, whenever she had that urge, it would quickly dissipate.
But now, because of the various blows and sadness of separation, it is very easy for her to have these outbursts, and there is no one around to comfort her. Especially when she is pregnant, she is particularly sensitive.
Now she was crying with tears streaming down her face, her whole body trembling and cold, and the feeling of dying despair enveloped her for a long time.
Now she even feels that she is not worthy of being a mother and is not worthy of teaching her daughter.
It would be better if we died now, both of us could go together, and there would be no pain.
She sat there stiffly and motionless, with a surge of pain and despair in her heart. The pain and despair were like a flood that left her powerless to resist.
She sat stiffly from morning till afternoon, her face streaked with tears. She finally struggled to her feet and washed her face with water. It was as if all her strength had been drained from her, and this catastrophic attack had left her incomparably hopeless.
"What is he doing?"
She thought to herself, and never dared to sit back at the table.
The lotus flowers were in bloom now. Among the small patch of lotus flowers at the ferry, there was a pure white one, and she went over to ask the boatman for help in picking that one.
"We can buy it at the market," said the boatman.
“That’s the one I want.”
She put the white lotus in the water and placed it on the window.
She sat there, looking at the flower, and thought to herself, "This is not going to end well for any of us."
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