Chapter 209: I'm really useless
“If only I could go back to that time.”
"If it happens again, I will never agree to Jiang Yue..."
The turning point in Song Lehan's life started when Song Jianguo suddenly fell ill.
A sudden illness shattered the once happy family.
In order to save Song Jianguo, Song Lehan and Zhang Zhiya spent all their time thinking about how to make money and how to pay for the expensive medical expenses. So, when someone appeared and took the initiative to bear those medical expenses, it was undoubtedly very tempting.
If Song Lehan had not agreed, her life might have been a little more difficult, but everything was in her own hands.
But if that were the case, Song Jianguo might not have lived so many years.
Maybe one day, when Song Lehan and Zhang Zhiya can no longer afford the medical expenses, they may give up on Song Jianguo.
Thinking of this, Song Lehan lowered his eyes and tears slowly fell.
It seemed that no matter what choice she made, her originally happy family would never come back.
Is this fate?
Song Lehan couldn't figure it out, he really couldn't figure it out.
Why can’t God be a little more merciful to their family?
Why does it have to be like this?
Song Lehan wiped away her tears, but the next second she couldn't help crying again. She wiped away her tears, but they couldn't be wiped away. Song Lehan completely collapsed.
"I'm so useless!"
"Just crying, crying, crying, what's the use!"
Song Lehan began to blame herself and suppressed her tears, sounding really pitiful.
This is when Song Lehan is at his most vulnerable.
Xu Jiangcuo stood up and sat on the edge of the bed, put his arm around Song Lehan's shoulders and let her lean on him.
Song Lehan was held in Xu Jiangcuo's arms, and the warm chest melted her pretended strength. Her crying gradually became louder, and Song Lehan leaned on Xu Jiangcuo's arms, crying a little helplessly.
Her parents died, and she was the only one left in the world.
When I think about never seeing my mother again, never hearing her voice again, never eating her cooking again...
After saying goodbye so many times, I never expected that this time would be a farewell forever.
"Mom, Dad..."
I really miss you guys.
Song Lehan cried for a long time, so long that Xu Jiangcuo's clothes were soaked.
After crying for a while, Song Lehan could no longer shed any tears. Her eyes were red and swollen.
"I don't know how to comfort you, but since it's already like this, I think my uncle and aunt want to see you survive."
"Live well."
Xu Jiangcuo hopes that Song Lehan will not be too pessimistic and can live well.
Without her parents, she still has herself.
Even for her own sake, she must live well.
Live happily.
Song Lehan sniffed and asked in a trembling voice, "Can you tell me when they died?"
"November 23rd."
Xu Jiangcuo didn't know whether Song Lehan remembered that this was the day she and Jiang Yue went to the hospital. Based on Song Lehan's personality, if she knew, she would definitely think too much.
She might even feel that she had harmed her parents.
Song Lehan paused, her eyes widening in disbelief. She emerged from Xu Jiangcuo's embrace, frowning, and asked weakly, "So, after Jiang Yue and I went to the hospital to see them, my mom, she, she committed suicide?"
Xu Jiangcuo didn't say anything, but silence is also a kind of answer.
It's true.
A tear fell from the corner of Song Lehan's eye.
"Hahaha," she suddenly laughed, "I didn't expect it to be like this."
After that meeting, Song Lehan still felt hopeful.
She hoped that her mother would take good care of her father and wait for Xu Jiangcuo to take them all away. No matter what happened, at least no one would die.
No one leaves forever.
That day, she just wanted to go see Zhang Zhiya. She was afraid that what Jiang Yue said was false, that he was lying to her, so she wanted to confirm it.
She just wanted to confirm it.
Why did it become like this?
Why did Zhang Zhiya commit suicide after she left the hospital?
Why?!
Mom, why on earth are you doing this!!!
Before completely collapsing, Song Lehan pinched his hand and regained his composure.
She lowered her head and began to recall what happened that day.
It seems like he didn't say anything.
Except when Jiang Yue was in the ward, he seemed to have said something he shouldn't have said. However, his voice was so soft that even if her mother was eavesdropping outside the ward, she wouldn't have heard it.
When else?
Probably when I was waiting for the elevator.
Is it that time?
That's impossible.
Her mother is in the ward and won't come out.
Song Lehan couldn't figure it out, so he looked up at Xu Jiangcuo and said, "Can you take me to the hospital tomorrow? I want to know what my mother wrote to me."
Xu Jiangcuo didn't want to agree at first.
By tomorrow, Jiang Yue would definitely know that Song Lehan had escaped. If she showed up at the hospital, Jiang Yue would definitely be the first to know.
By then... I'm afraid Jiang Yue will find a way to keep Song Lehan.
However, facing Song Lehan in front of him, Xu Jiangcuo had no way to refuse.
"Okay, but it's a new day now."
"Let's go early. You contact the nurse first and find a more private place. We'll get our things and leave. We won't let Jiang Yue see us, okay?"
Song Lehan knew that doing so would be dangerous.
She had just escaped from Jiang Yue and immediately appeared in the hospital, so it was easy for Jiang Yue to find her. She might even go back if she wasn't careful.
But Song Lehan couldn't wait any longer.
She really wanted to know why her mother was fine one second, but when she left the next second, she...
What on earth could make Zhang Zhiya do this?
"Okay, I'll contact her when it's daybreak."
Xu Jiangcuo agreed, his voice already tired.
"I'm sorry." Song Lehan took the initiative to apologize, "Go to sleep, you are very tired today."
Xu Jiangcuo said "hmm" and was about to stand up when he was stopped by Song Lehan.
"Can you stay with me?"
Song Lehan tilted her head back with tears in her eyes, which made Xu Jiangcuo's heart soften.
"Okay." He nodded in agreement.
Immediately, Song Lehan moved to the side and patted the place beside him, "Just lie here, lie next to me..."
Halfway through her speech, she realized that something was not right, and just when she was about to change her words, Xu Jiangcuo agreed without hesitation.
"good."
One word gave Song Lehan a full sense of security.
She is really, really insecure now.
As soon as she closed her eyes, all she could think about was Zhang Zhiya and Song Jianguo.
Then fell into fear.
Just like when she was in junior high school, her parents would sometimes work overtime together and couldn't come home, leaving her alone. She was very scared at night and would open her eyes to look at any movement.
I can't sleep at all.
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