Chapter 129 [VIP] Lifesaver (16)
After saying this, Nan Yan hadn't seen Jin Linli since almost noon. She didn't even see him come out during mealtimes. The servants brought the food into his room and took it out intact. Even Jin Wu shook his head and sighed inwardly, wondering what had happened to his master.
How could he suddenly look so devastated, especially with that painful and regretful look in his eyes? This was the first time Jin Wu saw his high-spirited adult look so painful and hopeless...
He even thought that even during the time when his master was blind and seriously injured, he had never seen him so devastated. At this moment, his face was as pale as paper, which made people feel distressed for no reason.
The courtyard seemed to be much quieter.
Except for the noise Xiao Feihe made from time to time in Nan Yan's yard, which made Nan Yan laugh out loud, the yard on Jin Li's side seemed to have become completely quiet.
After breakfast, the sky outside became brighter. This time, not long after, the group finally left the small courtyard at the foot of the mountain in a horse-drawn carriage, and the carriage swayed slowly towards Yanyun City.
During the period of time after returning to the city, Xiao Feihe obviously began to consciously change himself little by little.
It's strange to say, when he liked Li Qingrou, he was afraid to approach her because of his bad reputation, for fear of tarnishing her reputation, but he never thought about changing himself. Obviously, he could also work hard to become a better person and try to compete with Jin Lili, right?
But for some reason, he just never thought about changing himself. When he was with Yanyan, he had a completely different feeling. He thought every day about how he could become a better person, more mature and stable, so that he could take care of her for the rest of her life and prevent her from being bullied, or help her get back at others after being bullied.
It seemed that after being with her, he became a little different from himself.
When Xiao Feihe thought of this, a smile appeared on his face unconsciously.
Because the elimination of bandits in Jile Temple this time was a great achievement, his uncle the emperor felt that this idle nephew seemed to have finally grown up, so he specially gave him a leisurely position in the Ministry of Justice. The position was neither high nor low, but it allowed him to get practical work done and gain a lot of experience.
At first the emperor was worried that he was not honest and thought that this bad nephew was even harder to teach than his own bad son. He couldn't beat him, and he wouldn't listen when he was scolded. His skin was as thick as a city wall, and he was lazy all day long. There was really no way to deal with him.
He also knew that the child had always been resentful towards him because of what his mother did in the past. His only elder sister died because of him, leaving behind only this child and then passed away. Even his own mother, the empress dowager, resented him a little, and this matter did make him feel guilty, so when this kid later led the second brother to commit adultery and fall in love with a brothel girl, he did not pursue the matter too much. The emperor felt guilty in his heart after all, so he was particularly loving and tolerant of this child.
But even if he tolerated it, he couldn't change the bad things he had done. He had ruined his reputation and was hated by everyone. Which girl from a good family in this city would be interested in him?
This was the first time the emperor had seen someone wasting his life like this.
So this time, taking advantage of the bandit suppression at Jile Temple, I gave this disobedient bastard a leisurely job, hoping that he would make up his mind to change himself.
Originally the emperor thought that this man would definitely refuse, and he had already prepared a second argument in his mind, using his deceased mother as an excuse. This kid would not listen to anyone, but he would definitely obey his mother's last wishes.
But I don’t know what happened this time?
He had just finished talking about the reward and was waiting for the boy to start pestering him again, but the boy immediately knelt down and kowtowed to express his gratitude, with a happy and smug look on his face. The emperor felt something was wrong no matter how he looked at him. What was wrong with this boy?
The emperor was an emperor after all, and he could not show his doubts, so he coughed and warned him sternly.
"This position in the Ministry of Justice is not for you to play around with. Since you have accepted this position, you must work hard. Otherwise, if something goes wrong, even if you are my nephew, I will punish you mercilessly. Do you understand?"
Xiao Feihe's face turned serious in an instant. He quickly lifted his robe and knelt down to thank the emperor respectfully, "Thank you for your grace. I will not let you down this time. I will do my best to fulfill my duties in the Ministry of Justice."
emperor:"……"
This is really strange?
The emperor exchanged a glance with the chief eunuch beside him, who also shook his head in confusion. The emperor coughed again, then waved his hand in annoyance and said, "Alright, alright, if that's the case, you can leave. I have other things to deal with. Remember, don't do anything reckless by relying on your status."
After saying that, he glanced at his tall and graceful nephew, frowned, thought for a while, and couldn't help but say, "Also, you are not young anymore. When I was your age, the eldest was already two years old."
"You should tone down your temper and stop being irresponsible and living a life of debauchery all day long. Tell me which girl you like and I will keep an eye out for her."
After saying this, the emperor did not expect the other party to reply. As a result, the boy nodded and agreed obediently, respectfully, with a bit of embarrassment on his face, "Your humble servant... we will talk about this matter later. When Fei He's reputation gets a little better, I will ask my uncle for help."
After saying this, the boy actually walked away with a red face.
The emperor looked at the eunuch beside him again, and now he understood completely that this boy really had someone he liked. That's good, it's good that he could change, it's good that he could change, this way he could do justice to his eldest sister's spirit in heaven.
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Meanwhile, at the Li Mansion, after returning from the Jile Temple, Nan Yan has been ordered to stay at the mansion and not allowed to wander around. There is a case being handled outside recently, and it is really unsafe.
During the time when everyone returned, it was heard that Lord Jin was ill and had been ill for quite some time. He even did not attend the court. The emperor even sent a royal doctor to diagnose him, but the royal doctor only said that Lord Jin had been busy with official business and exhausted, and had injured his body. He needed to rest for a while before he could recover. After hearing this answer, the emperor waved his hand and directly exempted him from the morning court.
My dear, please stay at home and take good care of yourself. It will not be too late to come to court after you have recovered.
After hearing the news, Mrs. Li was obviously a little surprised. She looked quite energetic at the Buddhist temple that day, so how come she fell ill as soon as she came back?
After hearing this, Madam Li inevitably asked her servants to find out more. After all, it was Master Jin who showed up in time in the temple that day and saved her entire family. This real favor could not be denied no matter what.
Especially later on, Lord Jin took good care of her daughter. Since he had forgiven them, they naturally could not be ungrateful. Therefore, Mrs. Li was very worried for a while.
I was worried, so I thought of sending someone to visit him and prepare some small gifts to thank Lord Jin for saving my life.
She had already chosen the candidates for the visit. The one that Lord Jin liked was Qingrou. He probably came to Jile Temple to save them this time because of Qingrou. Moreover, the two of them were already engaged, so Qingrou should bring some things to the Jin Mansion to see each other, so that the couple could see each other more often before getting married to foster their relationship.
The other one is her troublesome daughter. Madam Li had some selfish motives in letting Nan Yan go. This great opportunity, which she had finally obtained with her life, must be used.
There is an old saying that goes, it is better to resolve a feud than to create one. Lord Jin finally didn't care about her daughter's deception and fraud this time, and there happened to be such an opportunity, so why not let Yanyan come to apologize in person and completely resolve the resentment between the two.
After all, she is the elder sister, and after Lord Jin marries Qingrou, they will all be a family. Family members always have to interact with each other. If things become so awkward, it will cause unrest in the family, and outsiders will laugh at them, and it will also be embarrassing.
What's more, her incompetent husband has been in the Hanlin Academy for so many years and still has no great potential. Now he still has to rely on his status as a future son-in-law to avoid being bullied by his colleagues. Mrs. Li sighed, even if it was for Li Considering the family's future fortune, she, the mother-in-law, should give this stupid girl some advice so that she can recognize the reality, so that she will not be bullied in the future and have no one to help her.
In fact, even without Mrs. Li's lecture, Nan Yan would have found an opportunity to go to the Jin Mansion again. However, her mother was so considerate, so she naturally couldn't refuse her, so Nan Yan obediently agreed.
Seeing that her daughter had behaved much better since returning from the Paradise Temple, Madam Li finally felt relieved and asked her servants to prepare a generous return gift.
Before getting on the carriage, Madam Li couldn't help but tap the lady's head and admonish her, "Don't be willful this time. Be honest when you go to the Jin Mansion and apologize to Master Jin. He doesn't blame you because he is magnanimous. Don't take his generosity as an excuse to be bullied. Don't be willful again. Do you remember?"
Nan Yan touched her head which was hurt by the blow and agreed several times, "I know, I know. Mom, who do you think I am? Am I that stupid?"
說完趕緊一個轉身爬上馬車了，半點淑女的氣質都沒有，氣得李夫人捂着胸口又是一通嫌棄，覺得這女兒怎麽就不像她呢？
好歹她當年也是這燕雲城裏有名的大家閨秀啊？
南嫣也是透過車簾看着她娘那嫌棄的表情，眼角抽了抽，難道在她娘眼中，她看上去就是這麽不懂事的人嗎？
南嫣随手放下車簾，馬車平穩地往前行駛着，其實靳厭離生病的事情倒是她沒有預料到的，她以為那人最多會受一番打擊，但是沒想到這打擊對他影響這麽大。
畢竟她早知道靳厭離這人的性子最為固執，屬于那種不撞得頭破血流都不知道痛的那種類型，認定的事情，除非他自己能夠徹底想通然後死心放棄，否則旁人是很難改變他的決定的，就像他當初堅決要退婚一樣，不管心底多猶豫不決，他最終還是退婚了。
如今知道自己真正想要的是什麽之後，按他那個性子，只怕不會輕易放手，肯定又是要一番折騰的。
南嫣正想着這事，突然瞧見對面的李清柔的目光一直都落在她腰間挂着的那塊玉佩上，心中暗暗一笑，看來她也察覺出來了。
那玉佩底部刻着一個小小的“靳”字，這自然也是南嫣故意露出來的，早知道她娘會安排姐妹二人坐同一輛馬車，所以這塊玉佩也是她提前準備好露出來的。
李清柔沒有言語，只是目光一直不急不緩地盯在她腰間的位置，她很明顯已經認出來了，這應該就是當初那塊被她撿走并據為己有的玉佩了，也是厭離一直認錯人的原因，她眼中隐隐有些怨怼，倒是沒想到這個東西還一直被她帶在身上。
尤其是去靳府還要這麽光明正大的佩戴着，她是故意的嗎？是希望借此能勾起厭離的回憶，然後再糾纏不休嗎？
李清柔默默想着，越想便越是對這個嫡姐沒什麽好感，她對她其實天生就有一種不喜存在，這種不喜來源于她還年幼時，姨娘就在她的耳邊叮囑過的那些話，如今想來，一切都不過是因為身份上的差異罷了。
在府裏，李南嫣是父親母親的乖女兒，從小被捧在掌心疼寵着長大，在外頭她又是李家唯一的嫡女，身份自然也是比她們這一群庶女要高貴，不論她做的多好，表現的多知書識禮，在外人看來，她仍是比不上這個沒腦子的嫡姐，永遠比不得她讨人喜歡，所以從小，她心中就有一絲隐隐的恨意存在。
如今，就連喜歡的人也是，她明明什麽都有了，卻還要來搶原本就屬于她的東西。
明明從一開始，厭離就是喜歡她的，若不是李南嫣從中作梗，在其中橫插一腳，他們也不會錯過那麽久的時間。
想到自己那段時間的傷心落寞，李清柔便對眼前這個嫡姐半分好感都沒有了。
就在她沉浸在自己的思緒當中，想着要怎麽樣才能将那塊玉佩拿回來的時候，對面的李南嫣突然開口說話了，
“李清柔，你是不是覺得我很對不起你，搶了原本就屬于你的東西？”
李清柔聞言微怔了一瞬，随後抿着唇，擡眸深深看了她一眼，“難道不是嗎？”
“當然不是。”南嫣語氣理所當然。
她撐着下巴，又擡頭瞧了她一眼，将那塊玉佩放在手心裏來回摩挲着，“這塊玉佩是我當初在山莊柴房裏撿的，當初丫鬟告密說你在柴房私會男人，我去檢查的時候剛好不小心踩到了這塊玉佩，若是你當初敢承認自己确實在柴房內養了男人，并且讓爹娘為你們作主，說這玉佩是你們的定情信物的話，我自然會将玉佩還給你。可是你什麽都不說，你怕名節受損，又想裝善良占好處，那我撿到的這塊玉佩又憑什麽要還給你呢？”
“而且那間莊子是娘親以後要留給我當陪嫁的嫁妝，屬于我的私産，裏頭出現的東西自然也都是我的。”
南嫣擡眸看她一眼，拿自家姐妹的名聲來成全她的大度善良，偏偏又不敢承擔其中的風險，倘若她當初救的不是靳厭離，而是一個什麽亂七八糟的男人呢？原主豈不是也要陪着她一起承擔風險，遭受诋毀嗎？這種時候她不是也沒想過原主嗎？
既然雙方都有錯，那又何必總擺出那副她好像對不起她一輩子的神情，別以為她不知道這個庶妹在私底下做的那些事情？
至少她從前暗中诋毀原主名聲的事情，做的可是一件不少。
踩着自家姐妹宣揚自己溫柔賢淑、知書達禮的好名聲，還要怪原主親近外人不親近自家姐妹，原主只是沒心機了點，又不是真的傻，怎麽可能一點貓膩都瞧不出來？
一次兩次被坑也就算了，次數多了，惹不起還躲不起嗎？
她只是想說，作為庶妹，李清柔是有點自己的小心思跟私心存在的，但這也不是什麽大問題，哪家的嫡女跟庶女之間沒有一些亂七八糟的矛盾在呢？皇家公主們之間還有攀比龃龉呢，她們這些算什麽。
只是在原劇情中，李清柔暗中鼓動蕭非鶴去欺騙原主的感情，這件事情做的未免太過份了，別說這件事情她毫不知情，這怎麽可能呢？她又不是傻子！
而且，就算她一開始是不知情的，可是後來看到蕭非鶴主動接近李南嫣的時候，她難道不會懷疑嗎？
她明知道蕭非鶴對自己情根深種，為什麽還要在對方面前說出那種話，分明就是讓對方想着辦法去解決她而已，這種借刀殺人的事情不可謂不歹毒，何至于此呢？
就這麽看不慣李南嫣這個嫡姐嗎？
所以要徹底毀了她才肯放心！
想到這兒，南嫣擡手便将那塊玉佩朝她扔了過去，“雖然我不喜歡你，但這塊玉佩的事情确實也有我的問題，如今物歸原主，從今往後我們倆之間也就兩不相欠了。”
所以啊，她接下來的事情也算是替原主給她一個教訓吧，退婚嘛，一人一次，這才算得上是公平。
約莫又過了一刻鐘的時間，馬車晃晃悠悠地總算是到了靳府了，管家連忙從門口迎了上來，親自将二人迎進府中，說實話，這樣的場景，下人們也是頭一次見啊，就連跟着來沏茶伺候的丫鬟們都有些戰戰兢兢的。
這靳大人的前未婚妻跟現未婚妻居然一起過來了，這是要在靳府鬧翻天的架勢嗎？
李清柔作為靳厭離的現任未婚妻，自然是先表明了來意，讓下人們将那一車的藥材補品全都拿了下去，又仔細問詢了管家一番關于靳厭離的近況如何了？身體有沒有好一點了之類的話。
管家聞言，都垂着腦袋恭恭敬敬的回了，然後就說大人這兩日的情況已經好些了，方才還正在書房處理一些雜事，此刻應該是在後花園散步吧？
管家這麽說着，李清柔便朝他笑了笑，然後略微颔了下首，直接朝着後花園去了。
她今日心情不錯，不管李南嫣心裏到底是怎麽想的？只要她肯将玉佩還給她，那麽她也可以不再計較她過去做的那些錯事。
至于她說的莊子裏發生的那些事情，李清柔只覺得莫名至極。
真是欲加之罪何患無辭，她分明是救人，怎麽到她嘴裏就成了私會男人呢？
而且救人而已，怎麽就跟名節扯上關系了？她是隐瞞了所有人，但那也是為了不惹麻煩而已，這種事情怎麽可能告訴爹娘呢？
雖然她是沒考慮過李南嫣的處境，但她自己不也在場嗎，而且當時情況那麽緊急，她又怎麽可能想的到那麽多？最重要的是，事實證明，她救的不都是該救的人嗎？
想到這兒，李清柔更加覺得自己沒錯了，如果救人也算是錯誤的話，那這世上豈不是都沒有好人了嗎？
再說了，承擔風險的又不是她李南嫣一個人，有什麽問題，她不是也得承擔嗎？
這樣想着，兩人一前一後地就到了靳府的後花園，這花園裏還有不少從前南嫣種下的花，秋海棠開了又落，落了又有新開的，倒是和從前沒什麽太大的區別。
其中還有幾株是她養的寒蘭，擺在幾株翠竹中間，蘭花葉子中間的花苞微微鼓起，碧綠中透着一點淺白，似乎也要開花了，瞧着就是一副生機勃勃的樣子。
這也讓南嫣隐約看出來了，不動聲色挑了下眉，看來這些花花草草是有人經常打理的嘛，否則不可能開的這樣好。
這麽想完，面前不知何時就出現了一道身影，南嫣迅速調整好表情，擡頭看了這人一眼，這人氣色看上去是真有些不好。
大概是一連病了好幾日了，面色蒼白得近乎有些透明，光線落在他的眼睫上時在眼睑處投下一小片陰影。
他眸色很深，往常高高在上時，冷冰冰地盯着人看的時候會有一種疏離感，可如今他病得連那種身居高位的氣勢都沒了，看着就有種自暴自棄的頹廢感。
原以為他是沒什麽心思搭理人的，偏偏又在看到南嫣時，那雙眼中不自覺地就聚起了一絲毫不遮掩的光亮，
“咳咳……你來了。”
他捂着嘴唇咳嗽着，幾乎是下意識地往前走了兩步，腳步甚至有些着急。
李清柔還以為這句話是同她說的，便趕緊上前一步迎了上去，她臉上的表情甚至有些緊張擔憂，“厭離，你怎麽病成這樣了？明明前幾日還好好的，怎麽如今面色就這樣蒼白了，大夫來瞧過了嗎？吃藥了嗎？”
靳厭離聽到聲音，這才反應過來身旁還站了個人，他順着視線望過去，看到站在一旁的李清柔，眉頭輕微蹙了蹙。
靳厭離看她臉上擔憂的神情，猶豫了片刻，正想趁着這次機會徹底把話說清楚，餘光卻無意間瞥到她腰間挂着的那塊玉佩時。
臉上的表情瞬間凝固了。
他下意識地上前，甚至顧及不上男女之防，直接伸手一把将那塊玉佩從她腰上拽了下來，然後擡眸，那雙漆黑的眼眸毫無一絲情緒波動的盯着眼前的李清柔，冷着聲音質問，“這玉佩為什麽會在你身上？”
“什麽？”
這句話問得李清柔直接就愣住了神，她甚至有些沒反應過來，可等看到他一把扯下來的那塊玉佩時，面色頓時就有些發白，沒想到他在意的是這個，便下意識地回了句，
“這塊玉佩原本不就應該是我的嗎？”
靳厭離卻毫不猶豫地開口，幾乎沒顧及她的任何臉面，“它是不是你的你應該很清楚，我問的是它為什麽會在你身上？”
他明明是對着李清柔說出這句話的，偏偏目光卻一直盯着她身後不遠處的南嫣。
靳厭離望着她的身影，腦海中的記憶仿佛又回到了那天在別院時的場景，那樣令人渾身發顫的場景，她喊他“靳大人”，還笑着說要把玉佩還給他，不想再跟他有任何的牽扯，所以她什麽都不要了。
這麽一想的話，靳厭離只覺得胸口那股密密麻麻的鑽心的絞痛仿佛又湧出來了。
像是有千萬只螞蟻在不停啃噬着他心口，讓他下意識地攥緊了手裏的玉佩，眼中更是痛苦難受極了。
看着這樣的靳厭離，李清柔隐約中仿佛明白了什麽，她咬了咬唇，眼中似乎有些難堪，好一會兒才擡眸望向他，“玉佩是南嫣給我的，你不希望我拿着嗎？”
她話剛說完，靳厭離面色果然變了。
他眼中的絕望跟痛苦幾乎要溢出來了。
……果然啊，是她給她的。
她居然連這個都不肯再收着了。
靳厭離那一瞬間只覺得連握着玉佩的手指都在不受控制地輕顫着，心口好像有股無盡的寒意升起，不斷朝着周身蔓延着，冷到最後他牙齒都有些打顫了，他猛地擡頭望向站在她身後不遠處的南嫣，然後直接沖過去一把抓住她的手腕，将人帶去了書房。
離開之前只對李清柔冷冷說了句，“我有些事情要跟她說清楚。”
他說這句話的時候，甚至都沒擡頭看過她一眼，之後便再也不管她了。
徒留原地的李清柔怔怔望着那兩人離開的背影，只覺得胸口空落落的，好像有什麽再也抓不住了似的，難受極了。
……
而另一邊的靳厭離用力抓着南嫣的手腕，一路将人帶到了書房，守在門口的下人隔着老遠就已經被自家主人的氣勢吓得不敢擡頭，将門阖上之後連忙老老實實地退下了。
靳厭離則是一把将人抵在了案桌上，他眼眶有些微紅，眼中閃過一絲痛楚和受傷，啞着聲音質問她，“為什麽？為什麽要把玉佩給別人？我明明說過的，你撿到的東西就是你的了，為什麽那麽不聽話，要把它送給別人？”
那自然是有她的用處了。
南嫣一開始時還抿着唇不肯說話，可她手腕被這人握得生疼，掙紮了好久也不見對方松開，最後實在沒辦法了，只能擡眸望着他，躊躇了一瞬回答道，“那本來就該是清柔的，是我一直拿了屬于她的東西，現在誤會解開了，我當然要……還給她了。”
那雙水潤清明的眼眸直直對上他的雙眼，裏頭沒有一絲留戀。
靳厭離看着那雙眼睛只覺得渾身發冷。
她抿了抿唇，似乎有些猶豫，但是深呼吸一口氣後，又繼續說道，“而且，你跟清柔都已經定婚了，還有不到一個月的時間你們就要成婚了。等你們成婚之後，你就是我的妹夫了，這樣的關系，我這個做姐姐的，怎麽可能再拿着屬于妹夫的貼身物品呢？這樣未免也太不識禮數了，娘說了，我不能再跟從前那樣任性了。”
“何況，我往後也會有自己喜歡的人，若是他知道了這個事情，肯定也會不高興的。”
話說到最後，聲音越來越輕，也不知她是想到了誰，那臉頰居然有些不受控制地漫上了一層紅暈。
可此刻的靳厭離已經無心去想是誰讓她露出這樣的表情了，他幾乎聽不見她之後說的那些話了，滿腦子都是她剛剛說的“妹夫”之類的話，妹夫、妹夫、見鬼的妹夫！
誰要當她的妹夫？
靳厭離真的覺得自己要瘋了，要被她逼瘋了，他真的從沒有這麽失控過，這句稱呼就像是一支帶着倒刺的利箭一樣，猛地紮進了他的心口，在裏頭狠狠地翻絞着，讓他疼到幾乎窒息……
他受不了了，真的接受不了了……
她怎麽可以？
怎麽可以毫不留情地對他說出這種話？
明明從前那麽喜歡的他的人，為什麽現在可以毫無顧忌地說出這種傷人的話？
靳厭離只覺得此刻的大腦裏有無數根血管在突突叫嚣着，瘋狂又錯亂，讓他眼睛愈發地紅了，他直接伸手将人圈進了懷裏，一只手死死禁锢着她的腰身，另一只手按着她的腦袋，然後盯着她口不擇言道，“妹夫？什麽樣的妹夫？你想讓我當你什麽樣的妹夫？”
“抱過你、吻過你，還對你起過反應的妹夫嗎？李南嫣，不準再叫我妹夫，你再敢說一句妹夫，我保證會讓你後悔一輩子的。”
南嫣被這人死死禁锢着，面色頓時有些發白，她不知道這人為什麽突然就變得這樣失控了，當即用力掙紮起來，
“靳厭離，你這是在做什麽？”
“你難道忘記自己的身份了嗎？”
她表情變得有些慌亂也有一絲生氣，聲音輕顫着，偏偏又強撐着氣勢，顯然是沒預料到會發生這樣的情況，她惱怒道，
“我是李清柔的嫡姐，你跟她成婚以後自然就是我的妹夫，我有什麽地方說錯了嗎？是你自己說過的，你這輩子最喜歡的人就是李清柔的，你現在這樣又是什麽意思？”
“你這樣做對得起清柔嗎？你趕緊放開我，要不然我真的……”
結果剩下的話還沒說完，身上的靳厭離便已經不管不顧地吻了過去。
那一瞬間，南嫣仿佛被吓壞了，她一開始還沒反應過來，直到那只修長的手指不知何時扯開了她的衣襟，南嫣便下意識掙紮了起來，偏偏身上這人的禁锢的死緊，不肯讓她有絲毫逃脫的機會。
她只覺得整個肺部的空氣都被盡數奪走了，窒息到喘不過氣的感覺逐漸傳到了大腦裏，南嫣眼淚瞬間都出來了。
她用力咬他、抓他、拍打着他，可身上這人就跟瘋了一樣，被咬得嘴唇流血了還是不肯放過她，直到最後南嫣哭得都快岔氣了，那人才終于有了一絲松動的時刻。
也就在他猶豫的瞬間，南嫣抓住機會用力一巴掌扇了過去，直扇的他偏過頭去，嘴角都溢出了一絲血痕，然後轉過來，那雙充滿絕望和痛苦的眼睛就這麽望着她。
他朝她伸手，“嫣嫣……”
聽到聲音的那一刻，南嫣的眼淚幾乎瞬間就落下來了，她面色發白，下意識地後退着，然後用力捂緊胸口的衣衫，等确定沒什麽問題之後，這才擡眸恐懼又緊張地望着他，
“你別過來！”
其實從這人扯了半天都沒舍得扯開最外層的衣衫時，南嫣就知道他沒有什麽過分欺辱人的心思，大概是想吓唬她，又或許是真的被她刺激到失控了，不過這都不妨礙她接下來再虐他一把。
靳厭離見她此刻真的是一副被吓壞了的模樣，心中瞬間又被後悔與心疼湮沒，他想上前抱着她，想跟她道歉，可是看到她眼裏那絲防備畏懼的眼神，他發現自己心口仿佛刀絞似的痛苦，恨不得就這樣死了算了。
He was really afraid of seeing that kind of hatred and disgust in her eyes, which would make him feel more painful than suffocation. But seeing her crying, he felt so powerless, an unprecedented despair and powerlessness. Jin Lili was distressed and hurriedly took out a handkerchief from his pocket, then handed it over carefully.
"I'm sorry... Don't be afraid of me. I never meant to hurt you. I just... I'm going crazy."
He felt that his heart was already full of holes. From the moment he realized who he truly liked, he was completely finished.
Nan Yan didn't even reach out to take his handkerchief. She looked at him with red eyes, tears falling one by one, "Do you know what you are doing?"
"You and I have already broken off our engagement, how could you do this to me? It was you who insisted on breaking off the engagement, what are you doing now? Moreover, you are already engaged to Qingrou, what do you think of me by doing this?"
Nan Yan accused word by word.
Seeing that she refused to extend her hand, Jin Lili slowly reached out his hand towards her face, moving very carefully, afraid that he would accidentally scare her again. He really hadn't thought about doing anything to her, but he was stimulated today. The continuous blows, stimulations and regrets had almost made him completely emotionally collapse.
Jin Lili didn't even dare to touch her now. He only dared to wipe her tears gently through his sleeve. He apologized again, "I'm sorry, I really know I was wrong."
"I have never regretted so much..."
As he said this, the moisture in his eyes became heavier and heavier, and he said in a hoarse voice, "I was so wrong, so wrong that I couldn't even tell who I really liked. It was only after I broke off the engagement that I realized who I really loved!"
"Yan Yan, I'm so sorry. I've never regretted so much before. Can you... forgive me? Can you give me another chance and start over?"
When Nan Yan heard this, her eyes widened instantly, as if she was a little bit unbelievable. But when she saw his serious look, tears suddenly fell from her eyes like beads that had been cut off from the string. She cried even harder and raised her hand to slap his fingers away, "How can you say such a thing?"
"Where do you regard me and Qingrou? What do you regard the girls of our Li Mansion as? Are they objects that you can take whenever you want and replace at will when you don't want them anymore?"
"I've already started to forget you, why are you provoking me again? Jin Lili, can't you see me living a good life? Why are you so selfish? Or do you just want us two sisters in the Li Mansion to be jealous of each other for you, and from now on there will be no sisterhood at all. Where do you put us like this?"
She cried and when she got angry, she picked up the inkstone on the table and smashed it at him. The ink was all over her and her clothes were all dirty. A look of disgust flashed in her eyes, "You are a jerk, Jin Lili, I hate you! The things you did and the words you said all disgusted me. Don't come to me again in the future, otherwise I will hate you for the rest of my life!"
Nan Yan's words were merciless. They were like a sharp dagger that stabbed into his heart, causing him to bleed profusely. Then, she pulled them out mercilessly, causing Jin Lili's lips to tremble with pain.
He looked at the person in front of him with despair, and at this moment he seemed to finally understand what it felt like to be in excruciating pain.
It’s really painful…
After saying this, Nan Yan pushed the man hard again, causing him to accidentally bump into the screen frame behind him. His face turned pale instantly, but the pain was not even half as unbearable as the one in his heart.
Looking at Nan Yan's back as she left without hesitation.
Jin Lili's tears fell instantly.
He staggered a few steps and fell to the ground, finally sitting down weakly on the screen behind him. He stretched out his hands towards her back, but could not catch anything. Jin Linli coughed violently, his face became paler and paler, and finally he seemed unable to bear it anymore. He turned his head and spat out a mouthful of blood on the ground, and then he fell down slowly.
Jin Lili laughed helplessly.
She was right, he was so selfish!
It was obviously all his fault from the beginning to the end, so why can he change it whenever he wants?
He is such a jerk...
The more Jin Lili laughed, the more tears came to his eyes. He clenched his fingers tightly, but he really knew he was wrong.
Are you not going to give him even one more chance?
Yanyan...