After they all left, Tian Yu began to vomit violently into the only plant in the room. After vomiting, she would drink water and vomit again until she had emptied her stomach completely before she would stop.
The same scene played out again that night. She could stay awake during the day, but at night she was terrified of waking up with nothing in her memory, so she dared not sleep. Everything in the room had been taken away. Tian Yu searched everywhere for anything that could help her remember. Finally, looking at the long curtains, she bit her finger and wrote everything down in blood. She recounted her past, remembering how long Zhao Moyan had been gone, and her heart ached. She tore off a piece of white cloth and wrote down Su Shi's poem "Jiang Cheng Zi":
Ten years have passed, and we are separated by life and death. I try not to think of you, but I cannot forget you.
A lonely grave a thousand miles away, nowhere to speak of my sorrow.
Even if we met again, you wouldn't recognize me, my face covered in dust, my temples white as frost.
Last night, in a dream, I suddenly returned to my hometown; by the small window, she was dressing her hair.
They looked at each other speechlessly, only tears streaming down their faces.
I know that every year, on a moonlit night, my heart will break at the same place by the short pine hill.
Tian Yu used to think poets were too pretentious, but now she felt that although Zhao Moyan had only been gone for three years, it felt like three lifetimes had passed. It turned out that the reason they could write poems that moved the world was because the pain they experienced was unimaginable to ordinary people.
The next morning, Wu Yaohui came to Tianyu Palace again. When he saw the conspicuous blood-written characters all over the room and Tianyu's still bleeding fingers, his anger was unimaginable. He ordered the Weiyang Palace to be sealed off and Tianyu to be locked in a secret room. The room was empty, and not a ray of light could be seen. The walls were smooth. This time, she had lost everything again.
Aside from being forced to bathe, be given medicine, and eat every day, Tian Yu spent the rest of her time locked in a secret room. Although she would vomit, Wu Yaohui would still discover it and force-feed her more medicine. Tian Yu felt her memory becoming increasingly hazy. Sometimes, when she suddenly woke up, it would take her a long time to remember who she was, and she would have to desperately try to recall her past, but this was accompanied by severe headaches. It seemed that as long as she didn't think about it, the pain would stop; as long as she obeyed Wu Yaohui's orders, the pain would disappear. Gradually, she chose to compromise!
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