Chapter 102 Happy Birthday in the Previous Life
Several hours had passed by the time Qi Yan returned to normal.
Jiang Yuqing sent him a text message, asking them to get together again after he was discharged from the hospital. Then he reminded Qi Yan that he saw Shen Xiliu outside the hospital and made an extremely disgusted expression.
Some time after Jiang Yuqing gave birth to the child, Qi Yan told her that he was related to Gu Yanxing's death.
He didn't tell everything that happened between him and Shen Xiliu, but spoke selectively, blaming all the mistakes on himself.
"Is that so..." Jiang Yuqing was stunned for a long time, and his expression became even angrier, "What does this have to do with you? It was that bastard's own choice! You didn't ask him to ignore his own life, and you didn't ask him to drive his car to hit Yi Hongli. Isn't it just that he refused to come out and didn't want anything?!"
Jiang Yuqing was very excited and even cried out of anger.
Why does Gu Yanxing insist on having his own way and make such a choice? Maybe it had something to do with Qi Yan, but it was more because he himself couldn't get over it, and finally chose to exchange his life for Yi Hongli's, without considering the people who were still alive!
Jiang Yuqing sometimes hated him, and perhaps she had a little resentment towards Qi Yan and Shen Xiliu. If Qi Yan had not revealed his whereabouts, if Chen Xiliu had not exposed Gu Yanxing's whereabouts, perhaps the situation would be different now.
But Jiang Yuqing still retained his rationality, and that emotion soon faded away. He knew who he should really hate - Yi Hongli.
After all, Gu Yanxing's parents died because of him, which led to Gu Yanxing's mental breakdown and forced him step by step to exchange his life for his own; Qi Yan didn't know that he would indirectly expose Gu Yanxing's whereabouts, causing him to be discovered by Yi Hongli; Chen Xiliu only took out the photo of the real murderer who destroyed his sister's wedding.
They just stand in their respective positions and make the choices they should make.
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Coming again?
Qi Yan stood behind the curtain, glanced down at the familiar figure, and quickly and calmly looked away.
The longer time passed, the more he discovered Yi Hongli's insidiousness. Yi Hongli was unhappy in prison, so he dragged them into it with him, making everyone live an unhappy life like him.
The same goes for Yi Yang.
Some time ago, he was thinking of revenge and approached him with a hidden dagger, but he was pinned to the ground by the bodyguards left nearby by Shen Xiliu, and he couldn't even get close to Qi Yan.
Looking at his crazy and pathetic appearance, Qi Yan suddenly felt that he and Shen Xiliu were really ridiculous. After such a long time, he is still trapped in Yi Hongli's trap. Should he hate Chen Xiliu?
When I first learned the truth of what happened back then, I felt a little bit.
Qi Yan couldn't be as free and easy as Jiang Yuqing, so he hated Yi Hongli, Chen Xiliu, and even more so himself.
But he couldn't go on like this. His illness was getting worse and worse, and he was becoming more and more psychologically averse to medication. Perhaps one day he wouldn't be able to bear it anymore and would give up taking medicine. Like other patients, when he was mentally disturbed, he would choose suicide to end this tragic fate.
I obviously don't want to die.
…
"I'm sorry, I'll be leaving right away."
Shen Xiliu knew that Qi Yan didn't want to see him again, so since then, he almost never appeared in front of Qi Yan. The time when Yi Yang appeared was an accident.
He ordered people to take Yi Yang away, and he disappeared from Qi Yan's sight in panic.
Although they had never met in close proximity, he had always been very clear about Qi Yan's situation. That incident dealt him such a heavy blow that he was constantly in and out of the hospital. At first he even refused the Shen family’s help, and even didn’t want to contact Shen Yunshu. After all, the Shen family was also an "accomplice" in that incident, right?
Qi Yan resisted any contact with the Shen family from the bottom of his heart, and even threw away the medicine given to him by Shen Yunshu. Neither Jiang Yuqing nor Zhang Hengyi could persuade him.
In the end, it was Shen Xiliu who called Qi Ge and Qi Yan, and the two rushed over from City C overnight, which made him feel relieved.
Now Qi Yan can refuse anyone except Qi Ge and Qi Yan.
Qi Yan's illness was on and off, he was in and out of the hospital, going through these torturous days over and over again. Shen Xiliu had also been hiding in a corner observing his condition, staring at his medical records, and trying his best to alleviate the pain a little. However, once Qi Yan fell into mental disorder, he would lose control and commit self-harm.
Shen Xiliu once broke in at a time like this, and the out-of-control Qi Yan once wanted to kill him, but in the end he only hurt himself.
After regaining consciousness, he forgot about Chen Xiliu's intrusion.
However, ever since Yi Yang's incident, Qi Yan's condition seems to have stabilized a lot.
Shen Xiliu got Qi Yan's medical records from the attending physician, but he never felt relieved or relieved after reading them. It has been almost two years since that incident, but he still can't get over it. He is worried all day long, and fears every day that Qi Yan's illness will worsen.
I don't want him to die, so I have been trying every possible way to save him. The PHY Science Research Institute has already begun research on pheromone riot syndrome. Maybe it's a bit wishful thinking, but Shen Xiliu always hopes for a miracle to happen. Maybe... he can really find a way to save Qi Yan?
New Year's Day was very lively, and Qi Yan's condition had stabilized a lot. Fireworks would be set off at Xingyue Bay during every festival, and friends who knew Qi Yan's condition was stable invited him to come over for dinner, at a good table that they had not been able to book before.
"We're lucky this time. We can eat and chat slowly." said my friend. They chose a good private room where they could clearly see the fireworks.
In the past, there would have been many people on the streets outside at this time, but probably because of the heavy wind and snow, there were only a few pedestrians on Xingyue Bay Street.
Until the wind and snow stopped and the fireworks began to be set off, more and more people gathered on the road. Friends who had originally agreed to watch in the box couldn't help but go down to join in the fun. After all, it was happier when there were more people.
"Sorry to trouble you, this kid must be very heavy." Jiang Yuqing rubbed his sore arms, unable to hold his own kid.
Qi Yan helped hold the sleepy baby. The little guy, who was originally the most attentive, fell asleep on time after ten o'clock. He rested his round chin on the adult's shoulder and fell asleep with his eyes closed.
"It's OK, it's quite light. How heavy can a child be?"
Qi Yan helped the baby put on his hat, and even his soft, chubby face was almost squeezed into his arms. The noisy sounds from the street did not disturb him at all, and he slept particularly soundly.
"Hey! I can tell from listening to you that you have never raised a child." Jiang Yuqing turned his shoulders and said disdainfully, "That's because you have only held him for a while. If you hold him for a while longer, you will know what it feels like to have a numb arm. This kid is really fat."
"I'd better not bring him out next time. I don't want to bring him out in the first place, but he's too clingy." Jiang Yuqing reached out and poked his son's baby fat, feeling very happy that he was doing a good job raising his child.
Qi Yan covered the baby's ears and let him sleep quietly: "He is just over one year old. It's normal for him to be inseparable from adults."
"You don't have to be so careful. He sleeps like a pig all the time. How can you be more like his father than his father? If you had..." Jiang Yuqing stopped talking halfway.
He wanted to say that if Qi Yan had his own children, he would definitely be a good father, but when he considered Qi Yan's physical condition, he took back his words and changed them.
"It's really too noisy here. I'd better not join you in the fun. Take my piggy away first."
Qi Yan didn't let him go back alone. He helped hold the child, said something to others, and left under everyone's teasing gazes. Youyi in the corner hooked his sunglasses with his finger and looked in a certain direction. Sure enough, he saw his cousin in that corner.
I don’t know when it started, but Shen Xiliu, who had no interest in fireworks before, became particularly interested in them. Every time there were fireworks in Xingyue Bay, he would come here and watch them until they were over before leaving.
Two years have passed, and Chen Xiliu's habit has not changed.
But his mood tonight was particularly complicated. He was no longer as impulsive as in the past, but when he saw Qi Yan, Jiang Yuqing and the child talking together like a family of three, Shen Xiliu still felt sad.
I didn't want to see this kind of scene, but when I saw Qi Yan's happy expression, I couldn't look away.
Chen Xiliu couldn't help but wonder, if not so many things had happened in the past, if he and Qi Yan could have a child, would things be different now?
I don’t know, everything is just assumption, and the gorgeous fireworks in the sky can’t make him happy.
Chen Xiliu didn't even know what it would feel like to watch the fireworks with Qi Yan. He clearly had the chance before, but he missed it and then lost it completely.
"You're not going back?"
I don’t know how long it took, the fireworks had ended, the crowd had dispersed, Xingyue Bay became quiet and silent, and fine snowflakes fell from the night sky. Shen Xiliu sat on the bench under the tree, motionless, as if he couldn't feel the cold.
"It's past midnight." You Yi poked his feet with the tip of the umbrella, "After New Year's Day... it's also your birthday. Don't stay in a place like this. Dad wants you to go home today."
No matter how much time has passed, You Yi always feels that Chen Xiliu looks so strange when he sees him like this. He is not his arrogant cousin at all.
“…I got it.” Chen Xiliu did not move, but just looked at the sparkling lake in the distance. The white snow fell and merged into the water, and could no longer be seen.
He had no idea when Youyi was leaving, he just wanted to stay a little longer. Shen Xiliu knew that regret was useless, but he still couldn't help thinking, how great it would be if he had a chance to change the past. It was obvious that he and Qi Yan shouldn't have ended up like this.
After an unknown amount of time, the umbrella that Youyou had thrown aside was taken by a slender pale hand, which slowly opened, blocking Shen Xiliu's sight.
This made him a little unhappy, but he looked up without showing any emotion and said, "I told you, I will be back on time, don't come again..."
The voice stopped abruptly, and Shen Xiliu subconsciously opened his eyes wide and looked at the person who came, looking at him in astonishment.
"Isn't it cold?"
Qi Yan asked him while holding up the umbrella. He has lost a lot of weight, and even though he is wearing a thick down jacket, a hat and a mask, you can still vaguely see his changes.
“…”
Shen Xiliu stared at him without blinking, stammering, unable to utter a word for a long time.
"cold."
It took me a long time to squeeze out that one word.
He wore thinner clothes than Qi Yan, and as he was a man who paid great attention to his image, the coat brought out his slim figure, but it did not keep him warm at all. The weather was so cold that Shen Xiliu's hair had grown much longer than before. The snowflakes fell between his black hair and didn't even melt.
Even his face was pale and bloodless, and his lips were very pale. Only the three moles under his eyes dotted his face like tear marks. His dark eyes looked forward, without focus, like a statue without a soul, unable to perceive temperature changes.
"If it's cold, you should go home. Your family is waiting for you." Qi Yan looked at him and said, his tone was calmer than he had heard in a long time, as if those bad things had never happened between them and they had never been at loggerheads.
Shen Xiliu didn't dare to open his mouth. His throat seemed to be blocked by a ball of cotton. He was afraid that he would choke when he spoke.
Qi Yan, you shouldn't come to see me now, you shouldn't care about me...
"Chen Xiliu, don't get stuck in this kind of boring stuff." Qi Yan said, "You still have a long life ahead of you, there's no need to wallow in pain, you have to get out and don't let Yi Hongli's plot succeed."
With the conditions of the Shen family, even if Shen Xiliu removed the gland, he could still live for a long time, so there was no need to waste his life on his affairs.
"...Qi Yan, stop talking!" Shen Xiliu couldn't hold back his tears after all. Why can you still say such things at this time!
This is what I deserve! Why should you be in so much pain, while I, as the murderer, can walk away with a clear conscience?
"……well."
He heard Qi Yan sigh, slowly squatted down, looked into his eyes, and helplessly reached out to wipe his tears.
"Don't cry, there's nothing to cry about." Tears soaked through the black fabric of the gloves and felt cool on her fingertips.
Qi Yan's emotions remained calm, as if he had let go of everything: "Chen Xiliu, you must go out. Just think of it as doing me a favor and be nice to yourself, okay?"
There is no use to torture yourself. Qi Yan doesn't like this kind of plot where the enemies are happy and the relatives are sad. Chen Xiliu should not be tortured, at least he should not torture himself because of this kind of thing.
"You did nothing wrong, you were just used by someone. The real criminal is already in prison, receiving the punishment he deserves." Qi Yan whispered, "You should let yourself go. I don't want you to become like this, Shen Xiliu, don't forget who you are."
Stop that.
You don't deserve such a painful ending. You don't deserve this.
“…”
Shen Xiliu couldn't hear a single word, but he didn't miss a single word.
He hadn't seen Qi Yan being so gentle to him for a long time. But after going through so many things, Qi Yan's being still so gentle to him only made him feel more painful, as if she was holding a knife and slowly stabbing him in the heart.
Even though blood was dripping, Shen Xiliu was reluctant to let go. He just wanted to hold on tightly and never let go, for fear that Qi Yan would disappear if he let go.
But this time he didn't hold Qi Yan's hand so stubbornly, refusing to let go. When Qi Yan wanted to stand up, Shen Xiliu subconsciously let go of his hand.
"Happy birthday, it's time for you to go home."
Your family is still waiting for you, don't waste your time and life in a place like this. If you want to look forward, you have to keep moving forward.
A gift was stuffed into Chen Xiliu's almost frozen hands. Qi Yan put the umbrella on the bench, turned around and walked slowly along the green belt to the side of the road.
“Beep—”
A fiery red sports car parked nearby honked its horn and turned on its lights to illuminate the way for him. You Yi sat inside, stuck his head out, nodded to him, and whispered, "Thank you."
Qi Yan shook his head at him and turned away.
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