Repeating the Same Mistakes

In the previous life: A cold, unapproachable gong x a gentle, kind, and cute shou.

After rebirth: A gentle, meticulous gong x still a gentle, kind, but also cold and heartless shou. Lu Zhizhi x Mu Han.

What did five years of feelings count for? When he came back, what did I become? All the lies were just lies, and I was finally free. How could you just leave? I regret it, can you come back? I truly know I was wrong.

Gong's Diary: Today is my first day of rebirth. In a few days, it will be our first meeting. I will be even more handsome than in my previous life, making him like me even more.

Why didn't I see you on the day we were supposed to meet? Why couldn't I find you no matter how hard I looked? Happy Ending, with both sweet and abusive moments, dual clean, rebirth story.

Look at you, saying you love me, yet leaving me alone now. Other tags include: Strong characters, urban, wealthy families, angsty novel, rebirth, chasing love "crematorium" (a trope for chasing after a loved one after having hurt them). Additional tags: dual rebirth, chasing wife "crematorium."